Friday, December 31

Kamala Devi's New Year Reflections

     I'll remember 2010 as the year Lady Kundalini awoke in my sacral chakra. Last January, I returned from the Australian Conference for Sacred Sexual Educators in a desperate healing crisis, with painful thumbs and a sprained sacrum. After seeking numerous healers, the discomfort dissolved into a sublime sexual force in my lower chakras. Unlike other mystical but fleeting experiences I've had in my heart and crown, this arousal seems unshakable. I attribute my constant orgasmic energy to falling in love, doing my dharma, directing Tantra Theater, and developing new depths of connection with my tantric family. Looking back, it has been a wildly creative year!

     On the home front, Michael has successfully established a financially abundant energy conservation company. Devin enrolled in a French immersion pre-school and got his own room. We dramatically re-arranged the Emerald Temple for better Feng Shui. Michael has set up a low-maintenance grey water system for our organic garden, and is having fun creating a thermo-heating spa using compost. He recently modified our loan to reduce mortgage payments and has started building out the garage to make a studio office suite.

     By taking Tantra Theater beyond our back yard, I've started my lifelong dream of running a professional theater company. We scrambled to put on monthly shows at a hip downtown zen center. We also performed in New York, Sedona, Los Angles, SD Earth Day and Burning Man. (We even performed naked at Tantra-Palooza). Michael astounded everyone with the prolific writing of new material for Eco Elf, the green comic and the magical creation of Swami G-Spot. While at the Sacred Sex Round Up we inspired and inaugurated a local chapter of Tantra Theater in New York City.

     Another engaging and ego-confronting project has been co-creating a Hollywood pitch for a show on Polyamory. I'm grateful to all who trusted me enough to work with this independent producer, and for your prayers towards a positive media portrayal of open relationships. Special thanks go to Reid Mihalko the co-author of my Relationship BLACKBELT DVD, who hosted me in San Francisco for a weekend of events starting with the Iron Slut competition and ending with a sacred sex party.

     I took a quantum life changing leap at Tantra Palooza with 64 participants and 10 magical tantra teachers: Francoise Ginsberg, Jaiya Ma, Robert Silber, Ariel White, Mare Simone, Kirin Khalsa, Damien Rose, Reid Mihalko, and Shawn Roop. I 'm also grateful to have collaborated on Tantra Talks and Poly Potlucks with: Dossie Easton, TJ Bartel, Deborah Taj Anapol, and Kelley Bryson.

     I spent Thanksgiving week with my beloved girlfriend doing work study with Tracy Elise at the Phoenix Goddess Temple and am burning with inspiration for my one-woman show: The Sacred Slut Series (Which I intend to perform in March). Another big creative celebration happened at the San Diego premier of the controversial new documentary about Baba Dez entitled, “Sex Magic." Watching my naked body projected on a 40 foot screen in front of over 100 friends was both vulnerable and validating.

     When it comes to visioning the possibilities for 2011, I am still in the soup and feel a great call to surrender. I'm unsure what Spirit will have me do next, but I'm clear it will start with prayer, making love, improvisation and more surrender. The only events we have planned are a weekend with Charles Muir, writing my one-woman show, and Tantra Palooza 11-11-11. Hope to play with you there.

Love,

Kamala Devi
http://www.blisscoach.com/
http://www.tantratheater.tv/
http://uninhibitedbliss.blogspot.com/

Friday, December 24

How do we celebrate a Tantric Christmas?

     Christmas time can be confusing for non-Christians.  (It can even be confusing for Christians who are non-consumers.) As a tantric priestess and mama of a 4 year old, I've been exploring the meaning and rituals I want to embrace and practice with my son and poly family.
     Tantra yoga is not a religion, rather it is a spiritual path that can enhance life while coexisting with other beliefs and practices. Tantra is a vast umbrella that covers multiple lineages, so it doesn't have any one official holiday. (Although, I personally never pass up an opportunity to worship the lingam on Maha Shivaratri, which occurs on the lunar calendar around Valentines day.)
     Valentines day is probably the busiest time of the year for me and most tantra teachers, because Tantra is often seen as the path of relationship. Conversely, Solstice happens to be the slowest time because seekers get busy with their families, and as the nights get longer most Tantrics go inward to meditate and vision.
     It's humorous to notice that America's sex-obsessed consumer society is quick to sell x-mas themed adult toys and market them as tantric:
  • Sexy Santa Lingerie
  • Christmas Spiced Massage Oil
  • Candy Cane flavored condoms
  • Tantric Xmas Gift Certificates for sensual massage
  • Topless Kama Sutra photos with Santa hats
  • And The list goes on. (I admit I'm envious of a the hand-painted Christmas-Tree ornaments with yantras of each of the seven chakras.)
    This short inventory brings up the questions of spiritual materialism and consumerism. Unlike many spiritual paths which teach us to renounce our material possessions, Tantra invites us to embrace that the goddess also exists in the world of form.  Materialism is not inherently wrong, unless we seek the form to the exclusion of truth. 
     One of the most widespread spiritual teachings of the season, is that of giving and receiving. This is also a core teaching within tantric philosophy. In a basic practice of taking turns during erotic massage, tantric seekers often melt into the non-dual experience of receiving from service. And they can have a direct experience of only being able to love to the degree that they let themselves be loved.  Needless to say, receiving and giving sensual massage has always been be one of my favorite holiday gifts!
     One fundamental tantric practice is to expand into the spontaneous divine impulse within our self and others. As such, it's paramount that we stay connected to the true holiday spirit, instead of mindlessly following annual traditions.  Don't buy gifts unless your moved to. Dressing up is optional. Sing Christmas carols from the depths of your soul, or not at all. Choosing between vegetarianism or eating meat is a devotional act as opposed to a dogmatic one. And perhaps the greatest challenge: don't buy into any obligation out of family guilt. From this place of freedom, acts of kindness are pure, not diluted by expectation of reward or punishment.
     When I got pregnant and the doctor declared Christmas was my official due date, the holidays took on a whole new flavor. "Christmas is for the kids," I was reminded by everyone. Since there is no Tantric church of fellowship telling me how to raise my son, I am gifted/burdened with the opportunity to find my own way. I looked around and frankly, saw that we can either lie and spoil our children; or love and teach them. Though it's hard to avoid Disney portrayal of an American Christmas, we've been known to take Devin out of the country for the holidays to broaden his global perspective. But on the years when we stay home, like this one we've decided to be inclusive and eclectic in our practices. We light candles on Hanukkah, celebrate solstice with our goddess worshipping sisters, go skiing, exchange gifts without obligation, and always, always kiss under the miseltoe.
Love,
Kamala Devi
http://www.blisscoach.com/
P.S. Kissing Under the Mistletoe -- From Wikipedia
     Many cultures consider mistletoe a mystical healing plant that is associated to fertility because it stays green and alive through winter, while its host will not. Ironically it is a poisonous partial parasite who's . kissing customs sources from Norse goddess mythology.
     "Baldur's mother, Frigga, Goddess of beauty and love, went to all plants and animals asking them to protect her son and cause him no harm, since he was the God of the summer sun. She overlooked one, mistletoe. Loki, God of evil, found this out and got another to kill Baldur with a spear laced with mistletoe. Baldur was eventually brought back to life. Frigga cried tears of little white berries, like the ones found on mistletoe. Out of admiration, Frigga vowed to kiss anyone who walked under the mistletoe, so beginning the kissing under the mistletoe myth. What a wonderful way for the story to end, love overcoming death."

Friday, December 17

Family Photo Time brings up Poly Questions

The Holidays are here and Devin is almost 4 now. We don't usually take photos of Devin with just 'Mom and Dad' because we don't think of ourselves as a nuclear family.  But a media producer asked us for current photos of Devin and Goddess Julie Kondor was able to catch these precious moments on the day of a big interview for a media project on Polyamory.  While in Los Angeles the producers asked a battery of personal questions:
  • What was your path to polyamory?
  • How many other lovers do you have and how often do you sleep with them? 
  • Do you think polyamory is nature or nurture?
  • How do you plan to tell Devin when he's old enough to understand?  
The last question is my favorite. People often assume that someday I'll have to explain what polyamory is to my curious son. I think he knows exactly what it is, because he lives it. We may not co-habitate with any other lovers (yet) but we have no secrets in this house and he sees a healthy dose of afection between us and his "aunties" and "uncles." At some point he will see that the rest of the world is not like us, and I may need to explain Monogamy to him, but he is a bright sensitive boy so I trust he'll adjust easily to a mono-dominant society. My dream is that there will be movies, TV programs and/or cartoons that represent a healthy poly family, so that poly children around the world will see that they are not alone.
Our interview concluded with the producer saying; "perhaps soon you'll be that role model."
I certainly hope so. And I and appreciate your prayers and positive intentions towards conscious poly media. Enjoy these photos



Thanks for your support!
P.S. Julie Kondor is offering a $50 discount on a photo shoot to members of the tantra community before the holidays, check out www.kondorimaging.com.
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Tuesday, December 14

Kamala Devi is making love to life.

This is me:
On sex...
On love...
On art...
On Spirit ...
and Motherhood.
Facebook is like a great oracle that simultaneously inspires the profound and the inane. I recently had fun culling through my past status updates to pick out a few choice pieces of poetry from 2010:

ON SEX...
  • I reject the idea that it's just sex...as if there were a more revealing, dynamic, multi-dimensional form of communication. Sharing sexuality is like spontaneously downloading an elaborate new language that is completely unique to those involved...that's all.
  • At times I feel you so deeply inside me that making love would be redundant. Other times I think you a fool-- who doesn't know what you're missing. ;o) 
  • "If your crown is open, and your heart is open, then naturally your legs will open!"--Maha Laxmi
  • There are some things that just can't be touched by talk therapy!
  • Does Size matter? According to the Kama Sutra; there's the Hare, Bull and Horse for men and the Deer, Mare and Elephant for women... (Which feels very limiting) What kind of party animal are you?
  • Poly People are so busy advocating "It's not about sex" that they often minimize the potential pleasure of playing with multiple partners!
  • Other than judgment and hate mail, I have not suffered for my sexual freedoms. I'm grateful to stand on the shoulders of those who've been denounced, displaced, divorced, or worse. I'm honored to serve alongside you love pioneers.
  • My love, intimacy and sensuality are too immense to be held by any single relationship. Containing my lusty devotion could occupy a small army -- and that is on a good day.
  • There are certain taboos when broken and witnessed, bring wholeness to the observer. For me, group sex is one such taboo.
  • My mind is melted away by absolute awe or lusty heat, I'm sure there are other ways too, but I can't think of any.
  • My life's work is to prevent the Devil from maintaining a monopoly on Sex.

ON LOVE...
  • I woke up wanting to anoint your feet with essential oils and dry them with my hair. I long to play Mary Magdalene to your Christ Consciousness...
  • I savor the feeling of crushing on you...at times it feels I'm going insane, but sanity never suited me anyway.
  • This love has me inside out, upside down, spiraling like a coin between heads and tails. The deeper I fall, the higher I feel. And everywhere I go, you are there to meet me.
  • God may feel too immense and ubiquitous to grasp, but by holding you, as my bindi, I melt into the infinite.
  • I miss you. More accurately, I miss the idea of you. But at least I've got a lively dialogue going with a more available version of you, in my mind.
  • In gazing at your glory, I die to the unreal.
  • I step down from my pedestal, letting you undress every last layer of projection, attachment and expectation, to behold the naked glory of my true nature.
  • A woman who has every earthly pleasure imaginable, still needs a fantasy to keep her from feeling complete. Beloved, you are my favorite escape.
  • You ask: Why am I so blessed? Because the Goddess has decided to LOVE you-- who are we to question her.
  • This love does not hurt. Love itself can not cause harm. It's all the fucking barb-wire we hang around the heart--to prevent loss-- that hurts.
  • If I could show you that this love can not be lost... would you let me in?
  • Now that I'm established in loving you, Beloved, I'm embarking on the unreasonable quest to know you.
  • In my sincere quest to understand the human heart, I stumbled upon you--and realized-- I know nothing.
  • There's a thin line between romantic devotion and manic obsession. I don't know which side I'm on.
  • The yoga of love stretches me beyond my comfort. I'm glad that you showed up to adjust my asana.
  • Why, with countless lovers that shower me with adoration, validation, and devotion, do I still swoon when I hear my beloved say those three silly words?
ON SPIRIT...
  • This lucid dream is always unfolding, even when I'm awake, even when I'm unaware. 
  • To minimize suffering our culture tells us to increase our having, Buddhism teaches us to decrease our wanting. My new practice is to increase the satisfaction I feel when wanting.
  • It's not enough to just know God, you have to make love to her, too!
  • I'm attached to my attachments. They give me something to strap myself to, they reassure me that I'm real. What are you attached to?
  • The closer I get to God, the more I enjoy sharing myself with others.
  • I gave myself to this fire. I warmed my bare skin by the flames, and burned inside with your prayers. With smoke and dust in my lungs, I release these word to the universe, knowing it is already done. And so it is.
  • I am the answer to those prayers, the ones you hold so deep in your heart, that you even forgot you made.
  • I got more hate mail today.  I had to laugh. The religious zealot writes..."and when you die, I hope that God Almighty has his way with you..." And I'm thinking, me too.
  • Reality is relative. I'm grateful for a glimpse of yours, but when it begins to melt my version, I feel disoriented. Next time, can we meet on a more neutral ground, somewhere unconditional, like perhaps, in love?
  • The Beloved is even willing to show up as a hungry, lost and lonely seeker so that I can have the satisfaction of filling him with my devotion.
  • I bow to Krishna the embodiment of love who's name can be traced back to Krsh which means "to draw near" and "Na" which means to renounce. I embrace the beloved's irresistable power of attraction and simultaneously let it all go.
  • Every love is a mirror and as I surround myself with deep intimate reflections, my once glaring blindspot is melting away.
ON ART...
  • Tantra Theater is doing seriously devious shit in the name of art!
  • Every performance artist trips at some point and accidentally spills drama off the stage and into their own life. (Fortunately for me it happened after dress rehearsal, so I should be good for tonight's show.)
  • A true muse doesn't just leave the pregnant artist with inspiration, but breathes heavy through delivery and fortifies them with the gumption to raise the damn thing.
  • Your words are water. Not to quench the thirst of a poor woman, but to make morning tea, to feed the organic garden, to fill a bath and soak away the illusions of the mind. Thank you for showering me each day with the fountain of your soul.
  • There is Symbolism in everything: this tea, this pillow, this kiss on your mouth. It is what it is, yet it is more than it seems.
  • I awoke on the breath of an idea so bright it changed my vision. I marvel at how much shakti surrounds each new concept, like a seed embedded in edible flesh. Now to find co-creaters to share the sweetness and parent the project. 
  • Woman thou art profane, prostitute, concubine, courtesan, whore, harlot, slut, tramp, Jezebel, fallen, floozy, hooker, hussy, lady of the evening, nymphomaniac, streetwalker, strumpet, tramp, strumpet, trollop, wench.
  • Woman thou art sacred, goddess, hallowed, priestess, prophetess, muse, angel, emissary, cherished, consecrated, divine, pious, pure, spiritual, revered, saintly, minister, sanctified, venerable, divine, creator woman.
ON SELF EXPRESSION...
  • Though Radical transparency may be my practice, certain weekend experiences are too explicit to post as my facebook status. Where do you draw the line on how much to tell? 
  • At Black Rock City, burners often empower their themselves with a "playa name," this year I'll be found flitting about in nothing but a man's tie and answering to the name "Moksha." What's your alter ego called?
  • It's national coming out day! I believe truth and transparency are necessary for sexual liberation. And so it follows: if it's in my heart, it's on my lips.
  • I'm intending for perpetual EXPANSION. I get that the birthing process may naturally involve contraction, but so does ORGASM!
  • I contemplated all the ways in which I minimize my experiences so as not to make others jealous. Have you ever played this game?
  • In striving to be fully alive, I touched a place deep in my womb where I'm already dead.
  • It feels weird having all these clothes on.
ON MOTHERHOOD...
  • During our bedtime ritual, I told Devin (3) that we are all God, we just forget sometimes and he asked "why?" I said I don't know. Then he thought about it and said, "I'm not a god because I don't have wings."
  • Riding home from the beach my son Devin (3) kept turning back and looking at the sky..."Mom, Why's the moon chasing my tricycle?"
  • I tell myself, it's not that I hate being a monther, I'm simply overwhelmed with responsibility.
  • I spent the day with my son hanging out at a nursery, playing with tractors and eating ice cream. I cried from joy when Devin (3) said, "I miss my dad. But you can pretend to be him. I can call you papa Kamala."
  • I'm home, but since everything changes so fast in the world of a 3 year old, I'm perpetually in a whole new place.
  • Devin poked and prodded a gooey earthworm this morning. Having a son forces me into the tantric practice of experiencing everything as if it were the first time.
  • I took Devin (3)to the polling booth and he says: "Mamma, I'll sit here on these chairs and eat raisens while you save the sky from falling."
Happy Holidays,
Kamala Devi
Dec. 2010

Monday, December 13

Safer Sex standards & Testing in San Diego

     The Safer Sex conversation is often overlooked in the San Diego tantric community and/or dismissed as too personal to discuss in public. At the beginning of sacred sex parties, I often encourage an introductory conversation by asking participants to at least state when they were tested last, and what their results were.  These conversations are very vulnerable and can cause a hot debate amongst members and teachers.
     I agree that safer sex standards are personal, but that doesn't mean they must be private. It is up to every individual to set and uphold their own unique standards.  However, I hope my friends and lovers come to their standards based on the newest information about safer sex, which is constantly being updated as health research and testing technology advance. That is why I feel this should be an ongoing open conversation in the community.

Following are some of my own safer standards to help you evaluate your own general practices:

  • I talk about sexual histories with my partners before sexual contact. (I ask my partners how sexually active they are, who they are fluid bonded with, if they have any STI's or what recent exposure they may have had.)  
  • I visually examine my own and partners yoni and lingam before engaging in sex.
  • I use condoms for penetrative sex. (I merge with the barrier, seeing it as a blessing and don't let anyone give me grief about it.)
  • I use gloves and dental dams for non regular partners such as clients or participants at play parties. (Gloves and dams can be sexy!)
  • I use organic lube with all latex barriers. (Condoms tend to dry the yoni and sex without lube can leave micro tears in soft tissue.)
  • If unsafe sex, or an outbreak occurs I communicate clearly and fully with all my partners and ask that they do the same. (This is often also a deep personal growth opportunity, why did this show up? and what can we do differently next time?
  • If I am fluid bonded with a partner, we agree to follow the same safe sex practices with other partners.  
  • I intend to get tested every six months, and a pap smear approx every couple years.
  • I ask all partners with whom I have an ongoing sexual relationship to get tested every six months as well.
  • I practice compassion, forgiveness and sensitivity when discussing safer sex. I am not perfect at this topic, and this can be very ego-confronting conversation.
Following is a list of resources for getting tested inexpensively in San Diego:


For all STD's other than HIV I use.......San Diego County Health & Human Services Agency....Office of Public Health at 3851 Rosecrans St. S.D. 92110 (near Old Town) Only $15 cash or check only , STD clinic 619-692-8550 or HIV only: phone:619-296-2120  M,T,W,TH 7:30am to 4pm (they often close before 4pm) To test for syph gon, herpes, hiv chlamidia. takes about ten days, must come back in person for results.

** (they do HIV/Aids testing here also however it is the "common/older" form of testing that tests for HIV "antibodies" which can take 3-6 months to build up in your system....so that still leaves you with a 3-6 month "window".....meaning that any exposure that you might have had to HIV/Aids in the 3-6 months prior to the test will not show up on the test results. Therefore it only tells you what your status "was" 3-6 months ago. So if you've had no ("0") sexual partners in the last 3-6 months you're O.K......otherwise you really don't know.

2) For HIV/Aids......the UCSD Medical Center (Anti Viral Research Center) "Early Test" clinic in Hillcrest (just 5 min. from the County clinic) 220 Dickinson San Diego, Ca. 92103. website https://theearlytest.ucsd.edu/ This clinic is by appointment only. call for info and appointments 619-543-8080
This test is "free" and looks for the actual "Virus" in your body and therefore has a window of "only 7 days." (Yet it takes 2 weeks to get your results back)......a far more secure option! I highly recommend it. This type of test is also offered on a "Walk-In" basis at the San Diego Gay & Lesbian Center at 3909 Centre St. San Diego, Ca. 92103. Phone 619-692-2077. See below.

3)There is also AVRC (UCSD Antiviral Research Center) 220 Dickinson Street, Suite A San Diego, CA
NEW: Advance appointments available for morning by calling 619-543-8080

4) The Family Health Centers of San Diego’s Gay Men’s Health Clinic
3544 30th St San Diego, CA 92104 MAP

I look forward to hearing about your safer sex standards and/or any information that could further this conversation.  Blessings, KD

Saturday, December 11

Love Poems by Rabia al Basri

Take away the words of the devil
O God, take away the words of the devil
That mix with my prayer--
If not, then take my prayer as it is, devil and all.
--Rabia al Basri
 
I have loved Thee with two loves -
a selfish love and a love that is worthy of Thee.
As for the love which is selfish,
Therein I occupy myself with Thee,
to the exclusion of all others.
But in the love which is worthy of Thee,
Thou dost raise the veil that I may see Thee.
Yet is the praise not mine in this or that,
But the praise is to Thee in both that and this.
- Rabia al Basri

In love, nothing exists between heart and heart.

Speech is born out of longing,
True description from the real taste.
The one who tastes, knows;
the one who explains, lies.
How can you describe the true form of Something
In whose presence you are blotted out?
And in whose being you still exist?
And who lives as a sign for your journey?
- Rabia


Daniel Ladinsky writes:

When Rabia was quite young she was separated from her parents, and while wandering homeless was stolen and sold into slavery. Because of her remarkable beauty she was bought by a brothel for a huge amount of money. She was both physically and sexually abused from an early age, and it is said that this may be a source of her erotic poetry. She wrote, "What a place for trials and transformations did my Lover out me, but never once did He look upon me as I were impure. Dear Sisters, all we do in this world, whatever happens, is bringing us closer to God."

IN MY SOUL


In
my soul
there is a temple, a shrine, a mosque, a church
where I kneel.
Prayer should bring us to an altar where no walls or names exist.
Is there not a region of love where the sovereignty is
illumined nothing,
where ecstasy gets poured into itself
and becomes
lost,
where the wing is fully alive
but has no mind or
body?
In
my soul
there is a temple, a shrine, a mosque,
a church
that dissolve, that
dissolve in
God.

It is said that when Hazrat Rabia would not come to attend the sermons of Hazrat Hasan Basri, he would deliver no discourse that day. People in the audience asked him why he did that. He replied: “The syrup that is held by the vessels meant for the elephants cannot be contained in the vessels meant for the ants.”
In-joy.

Friday, December 10

Pole dancing at the beach






I love to flirt. And flirting with the camrea adds fun new dimension. Goddess Julie Kondor and I took a foggy walk to the beach, stopping in the alley to have a some fun here's the evidence. Thanks Julie and congrats on your new website: http://www.kondorimaging.com/Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, December 7

Solstice Sabbatical: Statmement of Intent

     It may seem like I'm Hibernating, but really I'm practicing my Yoga.  Winter Solstice is beautiful time to go inward. Because it's cold outside, I either like to go on a triopical trip, or turn up the internal heat! This year, I am taking a writing retreat to complete the following three projects:

1. Interview and script performances for my forthcoming one-goddess show, tentatively titled: "The Sacred Slut Series."

2. Revise and reprintmy novel "Don't Drink the Punch"

3. Update and reprint my book "Sacred Sexual Healing"

I intend to take a sabbatical from sessions & workshops so that I can convert my daily work schedule into writing times. Aditionally, I will to take trips to Orange County to work with my graphic designer, and be flexible when I schedule interviews and hold rehearsals, but I intend to put in a minumum of 20 hours in per week. My goal is to have both books at the printer for before new year and at least 60 pages of Script and 30 minutes of rough performance art.

To accomplish this, I am hereby taking a moratorium on FB and saying NO THANKS to social inviations during my the writing week: (10-6pm on T,W,Th) Wish me luck! Thanks for supporting my art.
Let me know what your Year end Goals and how I can support you.

Happy Holidays!
KD
http://www.blisscoach.com/

Sunday, November 28

Behind the Scenes of Sex Magic

     I’ll be appearing nude on the silver screen in the controversial new Documentary about Baba Dez entitled, “Sex Magic: Manifesting Maya.” Because this film is a brave exploration of sacred sex work, it seems only natural to share my body in the buff...but now that all of my dearest friends, including my mother, agreed to be in the audience, I’m starting to feel a tad vulnerable. Much of the footage was shot in Sedona and Hawaii while I was still nursing, during my sons first year of life.
     My role in the documentary cuts far deeper than physical nakedness. Because Baba Dez is my co-author, friend and lover the story reveals details about my personal life that I hold dear, as well as showing some practices that I don’t necessarily agree with.

     The short summary of the documentary reads: Baba Dez is a polyamorous, sacred sexual healer who’s made love to over a thousand women. When his primary lover (Maya) abandons him due to his “poly” lifestyle, he practices Sex Magic with other women to manifest her back.

     It has recently won the “official selection award” at both Phildelphia and Chicago international film festivals. A reviewer from Philadelphia writes “…Easily the most insane, thought-provoking, balanced, hysterical (although not ALWAYS on purpose) well-crafted doc I’ve seen in years.” Last week on IFC it was ranked # 1 VOD Sales (Video on demand, for documentaries.) Such accolades are unheard of for a documentary that doesn’t revolve around a big name or a current event.

     However, the project has not always been well received. In the 4 years of it’s creation, the doc went through over 15 edits, and unofficial screenings with intense negative reactions.

      I remember when, despite the director’s advice, Dez held a public screening of a rough cut at the Daka-Dakini Conference in Virginia Beach. I am not exaggerating when I say, the audience of 70 sexual healers nearly broke out in a riot! The group pleaded with Dez not to release it. The early versions of this film were criticized for portraying: sex addiction, black magic, rape allegations, breaking traditional family values, objectifying women, and commercializing spiritual work.

      I can only imagine the heat that Dez has taken for making this movie. At recent conferences, I’ve been personally attacked for allowing my son to be shown in an adult content film and had esteemed colleagues judge and condemned me for my decision to collaborate with him.

     I admit, I was not always impressed with the early versions, and I may not agree with all of Dez’s practices, and still may disagree with the some of the director’s choices. However, I maintain unwavering support for innovative art that speaks directly into our cultures darkest taboos. Further, I have witnessed profound growth and healing as a result of this project.

      Last year, I spent the holiday season in Australia with my husband, son, Baba Dez and his lovers Maya and Natasha. We rented a retreat center, worked together, and even took a RV trip through the bush. While down under, we screened a rough-cut of the doc to over 100 people who laughed, cried and had profound revelations. During the various Q & A panel discussions, we deepened our understanding of unconventional family. Maya who's since become like a sister to me, has traveled solo to Bali to continue her deep personal healing and is now writing her own blog and book to release Dez and his enchantment.

      Earlier this year, I held an unofficial screening of a late version of Sex Magic at my home temple with the directors Eric Liebman and Jon Schell. I'm grateful that these sincere documentary-makers gave consideration to the San Diego Tantra community’s feedback before editing the final cut. Just by watching the film, one woman had a full body recall of an early incest experience, and went on to seek peer counseling and expressed deep gratitude to Dez andafterwards.

      As a sexual healer who offers hands-on private sessions, Dez can only touch so many lives. Through writing books and producing movies and traveling internationally, Baba Dez is able to be a more powerful instrument of change on the planet. Dez has also created a broader platform for other sacred sexual healers such as myself, Mare Simone, Kypris Aster Drake, Ariel White, Lawrence Lanoff, Jaiya Ma and Shawn Roop to name just a few in California. I am proud to align with Baba Dez because, though I may not agree with all his teachings, I know he is a powerful visionary who has a clear intention to heal sexual guilt, fear and shame towards sacred sexual liberation on the global level.

I personally can’t wait to see the final cut at the Theaters Dec 3, Dec 4, and Dec 9th at 10pm at the Gaslamp: 701 Fifth Ave.San Diego, CA 92101

If you are not in San Diego you can download it online at:
http://www.ifcfilms.com/films/sex-magic
And tell your friends!

By Kamala Devi, co-author of Sacred Sexual Healing: The Shaman Method of Sex Magic. www.BlissCoach.com

Friday, November 19

Devin and the Triple Goddess

Devin LOVES growing up in a poly household! And I LOVE being surrounded by my sister-lover-goddess-aunties. Here's Viraja, Cheri, me and Devin after the Poly Potluck with Taj. I'm proud to have made it into two chapters of her new book!
On Page 23 of "Polyamory in the 21st Century" Anapol writes:
"Kamala's been accused of trying to convert others to
nonmonogamy, trying to prove something to the religious right and taking
advantage of the free publicity to market her books and DVDs. Kamala retorts, "I
have no idea what difference it will make in the long run. What I know is that I
love my life." Kamala says she's motivated by a strong desire to be a voice for
freedom and love in the world. I'm willing to be misunderstood, misquoted or
misrepresented, whateve it takes to makes the world a better place."
www.Lovewithoutlimits.com & www.blisscoach.com
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Deborah Taj Anapol at our monthly Poly Potluck


With over 50 friends and lovers at at the Emerald Temple, this was our Largest Poly Potluck in over 5 years! Thank you Taj for reading from your new book: Polyamory in the 21st Century. The highlight of the evening was her now famous quote, "Let go of the form, and let love lead." Get your copy of this great new book at: http://lovewithoutlimits.com/
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Wednesday, November 17

Tierd of Speaking Sweetly by Hafiz

Love wants to reach out and manhandle us,
Break all our teacup talk of God.

If you had the courage and
Could give the Beloved His choice, some nights,
He would just drag you around the room
By your hair,
Ripping from your grip all those toys in the world
That bring you no joy.

Love sometimes gets tired of speaking sweetly
And wants to rip to shreds
All your erroneous notions of truth

That make you fight within yourself, dear one,
And with others,

Causing the world to weep
On too many fine days.

God wants to manhandle us,
Lock us inside of a tiny room with Himself
And practice His dropkick.

The Beloved sometimes wants
To do us a great favor:

Hold us upside down
And shake all the nonsense out.

But when we hear
He is in such a “playful drunken mood”
Most everyone I know
Quickly packs their bags and hightails it
Out of town.

~ Hafiz ~
(The Gift – versions of Hafiz by Daniel Ladinsky)
Special Thanks to Goddess Maya for introducing me to this one.
In perfect timing, after I got more hate mail. I had to laugh. The religious zealot writes "...and when you die, I hope that God almighty has his way with you..." And I'm thinking... me too. ;)

Tuesday, November 16

Sacred Sex Show-n-Tell

TJ Bartel & Kamala Devi , Sacred Sexual Healing
My son will be 4 years old this holiday season. I am not only celebrating his birth, but my own humbling rite of passage into motherhood. As a mom, I'm not supposed to be a highly sexualized being. Somehow, it's socially acceptable for me to talk about whether he's circumcised, how long I nursed and when my period to came back.

But it's NOT acceptable to share that my inner labia ripped during my home-birth, and giving birth changed the size and shape of my yoni, the taste of my fluids, the amount of lubrication I produce, the positions I prefer, how long it takes me to orgasm and the type of orgasms I now enjoy.

During my initial postpartum period, I felt broken. I cried to Michael, my midwife, and my mother about my sexual loss. Most women assured me that these were natural changes and that it's normal to have a decrease in sex drive, and they assured me that motherhood had other rewards.

But when my son was 9 months old, I went to see feminist revolutionary Betty Dodson and realized that the cultural messages about my body were... BULLSHIT! For over 30 years Dodson has been holding women empowerment circles and "Genital Show & Tell"events that heal and transform deep wounding that is maintained by a shroud of sexual taboos.

Soon after meeting Betty, I started offering "genital show and tell" groups to my "Sisters in Truth." In the context of sacred circle, we would not only talk about every sexual taboo, but practice yoni gazing, yoni photography and group masturbation.

Recently, I've had many personal revelations in my naked yoga and Quodoshka practices and I am called to offer a these vulnerable teachings within a circle of mixed gender. There are profound sexual healing benefits when we give eachother permission to show and share about our nakedness.

We recently held a profound healing circle at the Advanced Sacred Sexual Healing workshop last month with TJ Bartel. I look forward to collaborating with him more in the near future, and in the meantime, let me know if you want to join us for the next Gential Show & Tell event. .

Love you,
Kamala Devi
www.BlissCoach.com or call 858-272-2254
Nov. 18 Poly Potluck with Guest Speaker: Deborah Taj Anapol 6:45
Nov. 19 Poly Talk at Phoenix Goddess Temple 7-9pm
Nov. 20-21 Tantra Theater Intensive at Phoenix Goddess Temple
Dec. 4 Sacred Snuggle Party 6:45 (Last event of the year)
Jan. 17 Auditions and Open House for Tantra Theater Troupe 2011
March 4-6 Art of Conscious Loving with Leah Alchin & Charles Muir!

Sunday, November 14

Special Inviation: Tantra Theater at the Phoenix Goddess Temple

Dear Temple Priestess,

"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
When I was little, my answer was 'ballerina' or 'nurse.'
That's because I didn't know 'Dakini' was an option.

Today, when I tell people I'm a "Sacred Sexual healer,"
They stare at me blankly and have no clue what I do.
Sometimes when they ask, "What is Tantra?" I feel sad,
Because I know I can TALK about it until I'm blue in the face...
but unless they're ready to experience it, they'll never understand.

I belong to a special tribe of sexy light workers.
Our calling is to heal the worlds deepest wound,
secretly, for years, we did it one session at a time.
But now our collective consciousness is waking up,
it's time we use the temple arts to teach and inspire.

Spoken word, song, dance, comedy...this is language of the muses.
Whereas written word is a tool from the masculine missionaries.
Tantra Theater is an invitation to put down your books,
get out of your mind, stand up and speak your herstory!
Join me this weekend for a deep journey into your full expression.

Nov. 20-21 Tantra Theater Intensive for Phoenix Goddess Temple.
Kamala Devi is working with the Mystic systers to design tantra theater teachings specifically for the Phoenix Goddess Temple. This weekend workshop is specifically designed for goddess practitioners who want to enhance their transpersonal theater skills such as fantasy role play, embodying the archetypes and erotic improvisation. The workshop is open to the public and no theater experience is necessary.
 
Cost is a reduced price at $220 for the entire 18 hour workshop which culminates in an optional performance at the full moon celebration on the 21st. Location: Temple of 1 Contact: School of 1 at 602-956-0651 http://www.tantratheater.tv/ or call Kamala Devi at 858-272-2254.

Love,
Kamala Devi

Weekend Overview:
10am-6pm Sat and Sun.
Tantra Theater is a transformative group process where we delve into personal history and have fun re-scripting the sexual and spiritual stories that have been holding us back. The intensive two day journey involves 18 hours of deep personal growth exercises designed to transform sexual guilt shame and fear into art, healing and liberation. We'll begin to re-script you spiritual or sexual awakening "Story" into a performance that will inspire the people to heal. This unique event is an entertaining and enlightening whether it's for the screen, stage or for an audience of one.
Benefits:
**Stage presence and confidence
**Break through whatever holds you back!
**An expanded sense of intimate and meaningful sharing
**A keen ability to impact others
**Enhanced presenter skills
**The experience of freedom and joy in your life

Most of us have an analytical understanding of our story, meaning that we could tell someone our story. However, in the process of using the expressive arts to craft our stories, our paradigm is irrevocably altered. Old suffering is observed and released. Connection is realized. A new consciousness emerges that allows for humorous self-reflection. Ultimately, we experience a greater acceptance of self and a freedom of being. This workshop is especially for you if:

**You have sacred or sexual wounds you'd like to have witnessed and healed.
**You are a teachers or healer in sacred sexuality.
**You want to expess yourself on camera or stage.
**You have ever dreamed about performing a one man/woman show.
**You are ready to re-script your reality & experience more sexual liberation!

During the intensive we will practice: tantric meditation and breathing practices, theater-based technologies, movement and improvisational dance, vocal exercises, group processes and optional live performance.

Thursday, November 11

The Movie "Sex Magic" is Showing at SD Gaslamp on Dec 9th!

Baba Dez is a polyamorous, sacred sexual healer who’s made love to over a thousand women. When his primary lover abandons him due to his “poly” lifestyle, he practices Sex Magic with other women to manifest her back.

A personal note from directors Jonathan Schell & Eric Liebman:

After 4 years, here it is...
We open NYC's IFC Center (the Waverly theater) this weekend! Midnight screenings this Friday and Saturday, and weekday screenings at 4:45.

The film has been rocking festival audiences. Last week in England, they laughed their asses off. 90% LOVED it, 10% hated it, one guy attacked me! They were stealing our posters.

We also just won awards in Chicago and Philadelphia.
Check IFC's website for screening times and trailer, http://www.ifcfilms.com/films/sex-magic
http://www.ifccenter.com/#day_fri
Here's our website for future dates and cities;
SexMagicTheMovie.com

Facebook,
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sex-Magic-Manifesting-Maya/162540689657

And if you can't make the theater, it's now On Demand at IFC.

Sunday, November 7

Sacred Snuggle & Kali Das's Birthday


This picture was taken shortly after Kali Das's Birthday Spanking Ritual and is just a handful of friends and lovers that attended the Nov. Sacred Snuggle. There was a particularly powerful healing vortex at this month's event because it started immediately after the advanced Sexual healing Playshop and Genital Show and Tell with Kamala Devi & TJ Bartel. Next month will be the last Snuggle Party of the year and will have a holiday theme! Look forward to seeing you there.
Kamala Devi www.BlissCoach.com or call 858-272-2254
Nov. 13th Naked Yoga (Intermediate Level) 4:30pm
Nov. 18 Poly Potluck with Guest Speaker: Deborah Taj Anapol 6:45
Nov. 19 Poly Talk at Phoenix Goddess Temple 7-9pm
Nov. 20-21 Tantra Theater Intensive at Phoenix Goddess Temple
Dec. 4 Sacred Snuggle Party 6:45 (Last event of the year)
Jan. 17 Auditions and Open House for Tantra Theater Troupe 2011
March 4-6 Art of Conscious Loving with Leah Alchin & Charles Muir!
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Wednesday, November 3

Are you Envious?

Overcome your Envy with "Genital Show & Tell" This Saturday!
     My son will be 4 years old this holiday season. I am not only celebrating his birth, but my own humbling rite of passage into motherhood.
As a mom, I'm not supposed to be a highly sexualized being. Somehow, it's socially acceptable for me to talk about whether he's circumcised, how long I nursed and when my period to came back.
But it's NOT acceptable to share that my inner labia ripped during my home-birth, and giving birth changed the size and shape of my yoni, the taste of my fluids, the amount of lubrication I produce, the positions I prefer, how long it takes me to orgasm and the type of orgasms I now enjoy.
      During my initial postpartum period, I felt broken. I cried to Michael, my midwife, and my mother about my sexual loss. Most women assured me that these were natural changes and that it's normal to have a decrease in sex drive, and they assured me that motherhood had other rewards.
But when my son was 9 months old, I went to see feminist revolutionary Betty Dodson and realized that the cultural messages about my body were... BULLSHIT! For over 30 years Dodson has been holding women empowerment circles and "Genital Show & Tell"events that heal and transform deep wounding that is maintained by a shroud of sexual taboos.
     Soon after meeting Betty, I started offering "genital show and tell" groups to my "Sisters in Truth." In the context of sacred circle, we would not only talk about every sexual taboo, but practice yoni gazing, yoni photography and group masturbation.
     Recently, I've had many personal revelations in my naked yoga and Quodoshka practices and I am called to offer a these vulnerable teachings within a circle of mixed gender. There are profound sexual healing benefits when we give eachother permission to show and share about our nakedness.
You'll be suprised by how much there is to learn about yourself in witnessing others if you join me for this sacred sexual ritual this Saturday, Nov. 6th from 10am-6pm at the Advanced Sexual Healing Playshop with guest teacher TJ Bartel. Scroll down for details.
     Love you,
Kamala Devi
www.BlissCoach.com or call 858-272-2254
Nov. 4 Tantra Talk with Guest Speaker: Daka TJ Bartel 6:45
Nov. 6 Advanced Sexual healing and Genital Show and Tell with TJ Bartel 10-6pm
Nov. 6 Sacred Snuggle and Potluck Party 6:45
Nov. 13th Naked Yoga (Intermediate Level) 4:30pm
Nov. 18 Poly Potluck with Guest Speaker: Deborah Taj Anapol 6:45
Nov. 19 Taste of Tantra Theater at Phoenix Goddess Temple 7-9pm
Nov. 20-21 Tantra Theater Intensive at Phoenix Goddess Temple
Dec. 4 Sacred Snuggle Party 6:45 (Last event of the year)
Jan. 17 Auditions and Open House for Tantra Theater Troupe 2011
March 4-6 Art of Conscious Loving with Leah Alchin & Charles Muir!

Monday, November 1

Tantra Theater Weekend at the Phoenix Goddess Temple


    


    











      Teaching Tantra Theater in NYC filled me with a strong sense of Dharma. This photo depicts the divine masculine nature of my hosts Anton Diaz & Reid Mihalko at the Sacred Sex Round up. Michael (AKA Swami G-spot) and I performed to approx. 70 sexy spirits that evening.  We've since inspired a NYC chapter of Tantra Theater.
      Now, I'm inspired to share these transformative theater tools with the mystic sisters at the Phoenix Goddess Temple.  I'm working with Tracy Elise to create a weekend workshop that is specifically designed for goddess practitioners who want to enhance their trans personal theater skills such as fantasy role play, embodying the archetypes and erotic improvisation.  This will be an 18 hour weekend intensive for the School of One practitioners.  It will be held at the Phoenix Goddess Temple and is open to the public.  http://www.phoenixgoddesstemple.org/ No theater experience necessary.

     Friday Nov. 19th- A Taste of Tantra Theater. at Temple Friday Nights Series from 7-9pm, This event is by donations only. You will do guided explorations of  formative sacred sexual experiences with partners and small groups. At the end of the evening, you will have the opportunity, but are not required to "perform" in front of the group. This is a healing practice for both participants and observers.

 
Saturday Nov. 20th & Sunday Nov. 21st   Full day of Tantra Theater Technology from 10am-7pm This event is normally $497, but for the School of one it is being offered at Half price only $247 per person.
 
     Tantra Theater is a tansformative group process where we delve into personal history and have fun re-scripting the sexual and spiritual stories that have been holding us back. The intensive two day journey involves 18 hours of deep personal growth exercises designed to transform sexual guilt shame and fear into art, healing and liberation.  We'll begin to re-script you spiritual or sexual awakening "Story" into a performance that will inspire the people to heal. This unique event is an entertaining and enlightening whether it's for the screen, stage or for an audience of one.
Benefits:

**Stage presence and confidence
**Break through whatever holds you back!
**An expanded sense of intimate and meaningful sharing
**A keen ability to impact others
**Enhanced presenter skills
**The experience of freedom and joy in your life

     Most of us have an analytical understanding of our story, meaning that we could tell someone our story. However, in the process of using the expressive arts to craft our stories, our paradigm is irrevocably altered. Old suffering is observed and released. Connection is realized. A new consciousness emerges that allows for humorous self-reflection. Ultimately, we experience a greater acceptance of self and a freedom of being. This workshop is especially for you if:

**You have sacred or sexual wounds you'd like to have witnessed and healed.
**You are a teachers or healer in sacred sexuality.
**You want to express yourself on camera or stage.
**You have ever dreamed about performing a one man/woman show.
**You are ready to re-script your reality & experience more sexual liberation!

During the intensive we will practice: tantric meditation and breathing practices, theater-based technologies, movement and improvisational dance, vocal exercises, group processes and live performance. http://www.tantratheater.tv/
Kamala Devi is the author of Don't Drink the Punch, Sacred Sexual Healing Coach www.BlissCoach.com
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Advanced Sexual Helaing with TJ Bartel & Kamala Devi

 Happy Dia De Los Muertos!

When people hear that Daka TJ is coming to town, they are excited to work with him, but wonder how they can go deeper, if they're not tantra teachers in training...

This morning I woke up with a HOT idea and have been working with TJ bartel to create an exciting NEW Playshop. Join us before the sacred snuggle for....

Advanced Sacred Sexual Healing Techniques
Now Only $129 per person.
INCLUDES ADMISSON TO SACRED SNUGGLE PARTY!

Experience hands on techniques to shift and transform sexual guilt, shame and fear. We will model live session work and teach practices to shift and transform. TJ and Kamala will address your personal questions and each participant will leave with a specific practice designed for increasing your unique sexual expression. Experience the support, inspiration, and wisdom of a master dakini and dakni in a small group setting.

Kamala will be leading a sacred genital show and tell ritual that is safe, and totally life changing! Open to single men, women and couples, no beginners.

WHAT TO BRING:
Wear comfortable clothes, dress in layers.
A sarong, beautiful wrap or robe.
Blanket,
towel,
massage oil.
A Journal and a pen.
Bottled water.
Optional socks or slippers since I have a no shoe policy in my meditation room.
We provide pillows but you are welcome to bring your own or a back-jack for sitting.
Please Bring a vegetarian dish to share with the community at the sacred snuggle party.

Tj Bartel, ACTE, relationship expert, tantra master, and advanced certified tantric educator, has helped thousands of individuals learn sacred sexual healing techniques to become more empowered and alive. Together with renowned neuroscientist Daniel Amen, he is author of the CD set Create More Passion Tonight: Uniting Ancient Wisdom and Modern Brain Science. http://www.dakalove.com/


Space is limited.
Register here or write: tantrikakalidas@gmail.com for details.
Kamala Devi
www.BlissCoach.com or call 858-272-2254
Nov. 4 Tantra Talk with Guest Speaker: Daka TJ Bartel 6:45
Nov. 6 Advanced Sexual Healing Playshop with TJ Bartel 10-6pm
Nov. 6 Sacred Snuggle and Potluck Party 6:45
Nov. 13th Naked Yoga (Intermediate Level) 4:30pm
Nov. 18 Poly Potluck with Guest Speaker: Deborah Taj Anapol 6:45
Dec. 4 Sacred Snuggle Party 6:45 (Last event of the year)
Jan. 17 Auditions and Open House for Tantra Theater Troupe 2011
March 4-6 Art of Conscious Loving with Leah Alchin & Charles Muir!
Weekly blog updates: www.uninhibitedbliss.blogspot.com
www.TantraTheater.TV

Saturday, October 30

I invoked the Goddess, I mean, really...

   New Scene from the Sacred Slut Show:
     I was never much of a masterbater. The first time I stuck my fingers up there was to insert a tampon and back then I was quick and lacked curiosity. Later, my friends would tell me what I was missing. They bragged about cucumbers and brush handles and toothbrushes and this was before they vibrated. One girlfriend even offered to show me how she did it with a coke bottle. But I was happy just massaging my lips from the outside. Oh, I enjoyed the occasional hand held shower head, or the vibrating back massager, but never had an overwhelming need for penetration.
      As such, I would never have suspected that my sacred sexual awakening would have started with self pleasuring.
     The first time I invoked the Goddess, I mean, really invoked God into my body, was while masterbating in India.  I, like most young naive tantra teachers went on an obligatory pilgrimage to India in search of my lineage, my roots. I was seeking the source of sacred sex, and ended up in a sex cult.

    I was at that unique point in my spiritual journey when my guru was losing his status as guru in my eyes. He had a powerful message, but clearly the was not fully integrated.

Michael had seen it coming all along.

“He’s not a total quack, his teachings are cool, but he’s constantly contradicting himself.”

The guru didn’t care for Michael either, “I don’t know why you brought him. There is nothing I can teach him." He had an unkept grey beard, bright eyes and always wore the orange swami robes. "Every man must learn from a goddess. That’s why I channel Kali, she talks directly through me. I give you teachings and you pass them along to him.”

Then he proceeded to ignore Michael at satsang and ptuja. He would give me advanced tantric practices about rubbing my breasts or sound healing on my yoni. This involved putting his face in my root chakra and actually blowing sound through my body as if I were a flute. It was powerful, beautiful, but I admit at times I was a little concerned about the hygene of that big unkept beard. And if that wasn't bad enough, sometimes he would give a talk from the toilet in the moring. Sometimes he was verbally abusive towards men, Michael tolerated a fair amount of verbal abuse in the name of crazy wisdom. And sometimes he would flip and say some mysogynistic things to his senior disciple, who happened to be the mother of his child. And then one time she talked back to him, and in broad daylight, he slapped her across the face.

Michael turned to me and said, “We’re leaving.”

I didn’t argue. I packed up my bags, and then I went to tell Swami-Ji

I sat him down and it was hard saying goodbye, it felt like we were breaking up. He gave me a beautiful string of mala-beads and spoke sweet words about my spiritual potential, but I was already deaf to him. I told him we decided to go to Kerala and go see Amma Chi. And then he got upset, he acted like I was cheating on him.

Michael and I left in the night, and after driving for hours we found a cheap hotel to crash in. Michael fell right asleep. But I, I went into a deep meditation.

It was a full moon, and there was a window build high in the cinderblock walls with rebar.  When the moon came through she cast shadows around the room. Her rays made my naked skin glow blue. I gazed at my body, as if another woman with blue complexion had slipped under the sheets with me and Michael. Then she rose up and began a slow melancholy dance. I was being moved by her. I was being danced, I was being breathed, I was being her. My body was her offering. And the goddess was pleased. She ravished my senses and insisted on seeing herself. I found myself infront of a dingy hotel mirror, and was astonished, I couldn’t believe the luminescence beaming back at me. One thought arose in my mind:

“Am I dreaming?”

THIS IS REAL. She answered swiftly her voice filling the room like honey.

Then I relaxed, and she took over. Pressing my body against the walls, until I was held by the right angled corner of the room. Clutching at my thighs and my quivering hips, she cried out from every pore:

TAKE ME.
But when I looked over at Michael’s sleeping body, I already knew that no mortal lover could satisfy her. That’s when my own fingers plunged into my wet depths and I felt as if my pelvis had become a chalice or bowl and as she undulated, my energy sloshed like sacred fluid that up against my edges and sometimes even spilling over. These ecstatic waves continued to surge in waves for hours. And then the sunrise usurped the moon and I was spent, but reluctant to sleep.

I didn’t want her to go away.

I AM ETERNAL. She assured me, and I settled back into my bed, which never felt so soft, I floated down into the pillows and was consumed by the mattress, holding me, surrounding me, dissolving me…

Until I heard the annoying buzz of a cheap travel alarm. Taaa Taaa Taaa Taaa But I had hardly slept. I was tired and groggy.

“C’mon, get dressed, we’re going to get Darshan with Amma today.” Michael says.

I didn’t care. It could’ve been high tea with the Dali Lama, there’s no Darshan greater than letting the goddess borrow your body for an evening.

~~~~~~
All Rights reserved by Kamala Devi. This is an exceprt of an early draft of Kamala's one goddess show. It is a work in progress tennatively titled: The Sacred Slut Project. For details go to: http://www.tantratheater.tv/ or  http://www.blisscoach.com/   P.S. The photo is of the aftermath of her Great Rite Maithuna ritual performed at her open marriage honeymoon in Costa Rica.

Friday, October 29

Radical Transparency

This group Shot is from October's Poly Potluck, the topic was: Radical Transparency.We had approximately 25 people, including 6 first newbies and after we shared delicious spread of vegetarian food, we created a sacred circle to explore and experience the topic of Transparency. It's interesting to find that definitions of transparency vary depending on the field in which it is applied. We had fun stretching the relevance of these definitions to polyamory. Here are some quick definitions we harvested from Google:
***In economics a market is transparent if much is known by many.
***In politics, transparency allows citizens have accessibility,usability,understandability and audibility of information.
***In telecommunications, transparency can refer to the property of an entity that allows another entity to pass thorough it without altering either of the entities.
***In data compression, if a lossily compressed result is perceptually indistinguishable from the uncompressed input, then the compression can be declared to be transparent.
***In the field of optics, transparency is the physical property of light to pass through.
In my 15 years of practicing spiritual poly, I've come to believe the most simple and direct route to enlightened relationship is to speak the truth as it arises. I'm grateful to have so many friends and lovers on the same path who keep showing up and letting their light shine through!
Our next Tantra Talk will be Nov. 4th with Guest Speaker Daka TJ Bartel, Certified Tantric Educator. http://www.blisscoach.com/
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Tuesday, October 26

Radical Transparency on Thurs. & Goddess Puja on Sat.

I'm back from the eco-sexual symposium in Los Angeles.
I'm excited to share my vulnerable thoughts and practices with you this THURSDAY at the polypotluck, the topic of: RADICAL TRANSPARENCY. If I am going to walk-my-talk then I will take a moment to share with you what's been going on for me:

After our fabulously sweet, sensual & successful weekend at Tantra-Palooza, I've been wrestling with a flu-turned-cough and my body has been telling me to SLOW Down but like most people, I resist listening to my body when my heart and head are having sooo much fun. I feel I have so many lovers, friends, projects and some part of me belies that I am super-woman and can do everything, all the time. Does any of this sound familiar?

Fortunately for me, the next two events that I'm hosting are simple and actually NURTURE me. So I hope you'll join me for the casual and fun Poly Potluck on THURSDAY at 6:45pm. And all Goddesses are invited to join me for a Women's Puja on Saturday at 6:45pm (must RSVP with tantrikakalidas@gmail.com) Here's the scoop...

Halloween is Witche's new year, what better way to celebrate than Sex magic with your sisters! We'll start with some fun icebreakers, invoke Divine Guidance and share prayer, dancing, meditation, sensual touch, breath and energy within a sweet, sober and safe environment. The focus this evening is to do Sex magic to super-charge a goal for the new year.

We will be gathering at the Emerald Temple beginning at 6:45 pm. We will cast a circle by 7:30pm please do not come late. Women who arrive after 7:30 will not be admitted.


How to prepare:
Bring an Intention
One hand picked flower from your garden (or your neighbors)
Wear comfortable clothes that make you feel beautiful.
Eat a light meal before arriving, this is NOT a potluck.
Bring an open mind and heart!
There is no charge, but donations are graciously accepted to help pay for Kamala's time and space.
Love,
Kamala Devi
http://www.blisscoach.com/
Oct. 28th Poly Potluck: Radical Transparency.
Oct. 30th Goddess Puja: Sex Magic for Witches New Years!
Nov. 4 Tantra Talk with Guest Speaker: Daka TJ Bartel 6:45
Nov. 6 Advanced Training for Sacred Sexual practitioners with TJ Bartel 1-6pm
Nov. 6 Sacred Snuggle and Potluck Party 6:45
Nov. 18 Poly Potluck with Guest Speaker: Deborah Taj Anapol 6:45
Dec. 4 Sacred Snuggle Party 6:45 (Last event of the year)
Jan. 17 Auditions and Open House for Tantra Theater Troupe 2011
March 4-6 Art of Conscious Loving with Leah Alchin & Charles Muir!

Tuesday, October 19

Who is Annie Sprinkle?

     You may have heard me bragging about how Tantra Theater will be performing at the ECO-SEX SYMPOSIUM HONEYMOON after ANNIE SPRINKLE'S PURPLE WEDDING TO THE MOON this weekend.  And if your not a huge sex ed, or performance art or sex geek, you may be wondering...uh, who's Annie M. Sprinkle??
     She's one of my personal artistic inspirations. As a student of feminism and performance art, there were times in college, after one of my experimental plays would get bad reviews and I would suffer the post-play depression and want to drop out of school, out of art, off the planet...but then I'd think about Ms. Sprinkle and the massive affect she's having on mainstream opinion about sex and spirituality. On more than one occasion I felt that if she could go from being a prostitute and porn star into a sex educator and artist, then I could push on because my path as a tantra teacher was already paved.
      Annie Sprinkle describes herself as an artist, sexologist, eco-sexual, author, lecturer, educator and thespian. "I’ve also been a sex worker of all sorts, a pioneering adult film director/performer and a professional photographer. I’m the first porn star to have earned a Ph.D., my work is studied in major universities internationally, I’ve shown at the best museums and galleries-- and I’m still going strong!"
      One of her better known theater and performance art piece is her Public Cervix Announcement, in which she invites the audience to "celebrate the female body" by viewing her cervix with a speculum and flashlight.
She also performed The Legend of the Ancient Sacred Prostitute, in which she did a "sex magic" masturbation ritual on stage.
      She has toured one-woman shows internationally for 17 years, some of which were are titled Post Porn Modernist, Annie Sprinkle's Herstory of Porn, Hardcore from the Heart, and, currently, Exposed; Experiments in Love, Sex, Death and Art.
      Sprinkle, who is bisexual,[1] married her long-time partner, Beth Stephens, in Canada on January 14, 2007. In December 2005, she committed to doing seven years of art projects about love with her wife and art collaborator, Beth Stephens. They call this their Love Art Laboratory. Part of their project is to do an experimental art wedding each year, and each year has a different theme and color corresponding to the seven chakras.
   I hope this inspires you to join us for this historic performance art event on Sat. Oct 23 in Los Angeles, CA
at Farnsworth Park Amphitheater. The Purple Wedding to the Moon will be Officiated by Reverend Billy with the Church of Life After Shopping Choir. Featuring many performers, artists, and amazing guests.
Gather: 6:00 PM Ceremony: 6:30-8:00 Reception: 8:00-9:00

     We will make our vows to love, honor and cherish the Moon & Mountains until death brings us closer together forever. You are invited to join us in these vows, or simply come bear witness. We ask for no gifts but welcome collaboration on the creation of the wedding. See more info at LoveArtLab.

     Oct 24 Santa Monica, CA Highways Performance Space Ecosex Symposium HoneyMOON Moderator: Veronica Hart. Panel: Ecosex Community Leaders, artists, teachers, thinkers including Tim Miller, Carol Queen, Deborah Taj Anapol and others to be announced. Ecosexuals unite! What’s an ecosexual? Find out with a panel of esteemed sex-ecologists; the movers and shakers of this satisfying new sexual identity and cutting edge pollen-amourous community. Find your e-spot. 3:00- 6pm Panel, presentations and discussion. And Schmooze with the Ecosexuals, Moon Pies and ecosexy treats will be served.
     For Details go to: http://www.loveartlab.org/.  If you want to caravan up with San Diego Tantra Theater, please write: tantrikakalidas@gmail.com

Naked Tantra Theater at Tantra Palooza 10-10-10

One of the unexpected highlights of Tantra-Palooza 10-10-10 is that Tantra Theater spontaneously performed in the BUFF!
 The show started off fully clothed with scripted pieces. Shawn Roop played the Emcee and performed his personal narrative about how he overcame Jealousy at a 3 day love-in! This Beautiful outdoor stage provided a healing atmosphere for our sex-positive message. (The running joke is that it looks like we're performing at Summer Stock.)

Goddess Brande Faris opened the show with her sultry voice and original song, "Hello & Welcome to Tantra." Rita Mooney did her Monogamy monologue. Michael kept us laughing with his Eco-Elf comedy routine about vegetarianism and Keith Davis and Viraja PreMa closed the show with their Tantric Journey Rap.
 
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Then we opened the stage to improvise personal narratives from the audience. And that's when Bodhi challenged Shawn with a story about when he was at a hedonistic nudist retreat. Rita and Kamala Devi are playing Canadian tantra teachers at club hedonism...
 Michael and Shawn are gay lovers while Kamala Devi  is being the temptress...
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And of course every one's favorite Naked Oracle..."Oh, Great Oracle tell me why I can't concentrate when people around me are taking off their clothes..."
As usual, we close with an interactive Q & A from the Cast...The director's low light was concern for the safety of her performers as they were performing on a precarious stage, only slightly safer than performing on a picnic table above a pit of snakes. The highlight was having such a fun, open minded audience and performing in the context of a deep three day retreat.

For Hot Streaming video clips go to: http://www.tantratheater.tv/ 


The End.

P.S. Photos by Julie Kondor.